Baby Don't Go!!

My Ex-boyfriend of 20 plus best years of his life just left. Looking at him and talking with him for hours I miss the good times. The things we had in common including our families. I miss his family as much as any one can. I know in my heart I made the right decision to let him go on his way. It is not like he is not around all the time. We talk every week and he is town every couple of weeks. Now! He announces he is ready to try to have a relationship again. Hard to hear just the same. He thinks he has learned his lessons and still loves me. What could I say. The truth we are in the past and the past is why I can not be with him again. I can not let him break my heart again with all the other women he had in his life. Talking for hours just makes us that much closer. I miss the horse back rides with him as to me that was some of the most romantic times along with cooking hot dogs over the fire in the fire place. Long rides in the country. Playing in the lake. Just laying next to him in the quiet morning hours. So I will hold on and cherish those memories. It sure was hard not to say Please, Baby don't go!! On the other hand he sure did some dumb stuff.... still does.. all this from a man who almost lost his life to a gunshot wound from a service station stop.

The picture is of him and his nieces and sister on their first horse ride. Look at my extended family now all grown up and beautiful. I miss them all.