Are we what we do?

When you go through life trying to be a good person. You know.... treat others the way you want to be treated. What about when it comes to realtionships? I have an Ex who knows more about me then my BFF's. I know what he is going to do or say at any given moment. It doesn't matter that I have some one else in my life we are still good friends. He stays at my house and we still do things together. Except Sex. Once I broke off the sick realtionship we had I will never go there with him again. For the most part he has been a good friend. I let him use my big boy toys when he needs them. He helps do things around my house that I do not feel comfortable doing.

He just called and wants to bring me a cupcake. For the way he treated me the last time he was in town. I turned all that down. Good for me right?

He will still show up acting like nothing ever happened.

So now I have to figure out how to tell him the cold hard truth ---
We can forget what people say to us.......
We will forget what people have done to us.......
We will always remember how you made us feel..

He used to make me feel so perfect, like I had a reason to live. I have so many good memories of our life together. The last time he was here. I didn't feel like he needed me for any thing more than a door mat. A dirty one at that.

He wants to give me a horse. I have lots of people give me horses that I find homes for. This one I am just going to have to try to turn it down. I am so hurt by how he made me feel. Do I still need him? Do I still want him?

I just hope when I see him that I can be strong enough to say what needs to be said from my head and not my heart.
I think it is time for a new beginning..Wish me luck.

Tootles